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Wednesday, December 23rd, 2009
8:49 pm - good vibrations....

ROBNELSON - It is as it's always been ( 3AM MIX ) from robnelson at Letsmix.com.

(sail to the moon)

Friday, June 26th, 2009
1:56 pm - pull over boy and get your ticket RIGHT!
it's really weird....michael jackson is dead. for at least the past 10-15 years i've really only thought of him as a pederass. since he kicked the bucket, i've been thinking about the awesomeness of michael jackson.

i remember when my mom bought thriller on vinyl. i would study the cover and the inserts the whole time the record played. i was particularly enthralled by the photo of him with the tiger cub....i said to my little 5 year old self, "this guy is awesome!". i remember seeing the billy jean video for the first time and i was pretty hooked. i used to "play michael jackson"....here's how that went down:

I wore this totally 80's tank-dress thing with neon stars on it, a pair of those plastic shades that happened to be in the shape of stars, this white glove that had dangly charms on it (closest thing i could find, ok??), and i carried around a glitter baton. then i would proceed to put on a "show" for my mom.

anyway, they were showing a bunch of his videos on ME tv last night....fucking awesome. i want to rent moonwalker so bad. i must have watched that movie 8 billion times as a child. my mom's friend used to hold me up in the air so i could moonwalk....i was definitely more of a fan as a child- probably because his obvious love for children was cool to me. i wanted to BE one of his "friends". ew. course i never had a penis so that probably wouldn't have worked out so well....but anyway, somewhere into adulthood i made up my mind that there was enough evidence to convict him of child molestation in the court house in my soul....but what if he never did any of that shit? what if it really all was "innocent"??

oh well, either way it will never change the fact that mj was an amazing entertainer and made some fantastic, timeless music.

(4 ships | sail to the moon)

Thursday, June 25th, 2009
2:08 pm - hot damn
jack in the box tacos are so fucking good. i think that if someone ran into my office right now and told me they were made of cat meat, i'd still finish this taco.

high fives all around.

(2 ships | sail to the moon)

Saturday, June 20th, 2009
4:39 am - he likes to bite hands, WOOOOOOOO
so tonight peapod tried to jump up on the bathroom counter and he apparently didn't get a good spring off the floor or something (wasn't really watching, was doing my make up) and he fell into the toilet. i heard a SPLOOOOSH! and then saw a fur ball scramble around the toilet bowl and dart out of the bathroom...splashing toilet water all over along the way. luckily, i had JUST cleaned it.

he's my special boy <3333

"got a little stripe head and a furry little butt
and all he wants to do is BITE, BITE, BITE."

current mood: content

(1 ship | sail to the moon)

Friday, June 12th, 2009
4:01 pm - it's the sure shot- sure to make your body rock
so since they started showing trailers for the movie the taking of pelham 123, i was totally racking my brain as to why that title sounded so "familiar", yet i had never heard of the movie before. i thought about it for awhile and i was like, "those are beastie boys lyrics"!!

specifically, "it's the taking of the pelham 123, if you wanna go around it come see me" (sure shot off ill communication)

i never got what they were talking about...

we don't have internet at the house (although that is about to channnnnggeeee!) and i kept forgetting to "google it" at work, so it kept on bugging me. i figured the taking of pelham 123 obviously had to be a remake...but since i had never heard of it in my life i thought maybe the beastie lyrics didn't say that and i was crazy...blah blah. it was just bothering me! i don't know why....

anyway, i remember to "google it" today! :)

apparently taking of pelham 123 is an adaptation of a novel. the 3rd film adaptation, in fact. the last was done in 1998- guess i missed that. prior to that, it was 1974 and i was but a twinkle in my momma's eye at that time so, meh. i also found out that the 1974 film version had a 70's funk soundtrack and a riff from one of the songs is sampled on sure shot, hence why the beastie boys paid homage to the film in that song.

well, allllllllllllll-be!

my stupid mystery is solved.

current mood: accomplished

(sail to the moon)

Wednesday, June 10th, 2009
12:57 pm - how "real sports" on hbo traumatized me for life
so the other day, i was laying in bed watching tv. there was nothing on so i switched to hbo and found that "real sports" with that one guy (bryant gumble, maybe?) was on. normally, i would simply change the channel as i enjoy sports, but i generally don't enjoy watching shows about them. anyway, they reeled me in with this story on crazy obsessed sport parents and they were highlighting this couple who's son was a wrestler. the kicker: the son was like, 4 years old and his dad was yelling at this little boy because he lost a match. little boy is fucking crying his little eyes out "i did the best i could, i pwomise!" and his akard ass dad is like, "no you didn't or you wouldn't have lost!" and then he probably went home and beat the kid. crazy, i know...but this is not the reason for my entry. this is:

so after this 'wrestling akards and their akard vicarious dreams' segment, i see that the next story is going to be about horse racing and how the horses are often "discarded" when they are no longer able to race. as most people who know me are aware, i am a bleeding heart animal lover and at the top of my animal love fest list are cats and horses. again, i would normally change the channel because a story like this would rip my heart out BUUUUUTTTTT, hbo led me to believe via this preview that this was going to be a heart warming story of how this one lady rescued the unwanted horses. W-R-O-N-G!

story comes on and off the bat they begin telling the story of this one race horse, "never has a day off" or something like that. they begin by showing some old footage of her racing and then a reel of her losing a race. then they go to "hidden camera footage of her owner talking to this guy saying he can't afford to keep her on because she's not winning and makes this deal for the other guy to buy the horse. well, turns out that this other guy is known in the circuit as "the meat man". they cut to some other footage of meat man driving around to stables in his dark, scary trailer. now, i have long since heard that they turn race horses into alpo, glue, etc but in my blind naivety i REALLY REALLY thought that shit was urban legend or a practice that had fallen by the way-side many moons ago.

ok, so then they cut to the rescue lady and talk about how she goes around and saves these horses. here's how it works:

meat man buys the horse then sells it at the meat auction where buyers can sell the horse meat to countries where there is a market for horse meat. well rescue lady goes to the auctions and out bids the meat dudes and takes the horse home. well, naturally she can't save every horse...and so the story goes:

cut back to never has a day off's story. they show the meat man trying to load her into his trailer and she fucking knows where she's going. she's bucking and kicking and refusing to enter the trailer, all while getting beat by the guys trying to load her in. they finally load her in and then they cut to the "meat auction". hundreds of horses corralled into this stable thing and this guy's throwing numbers onto them.....ALL of these horses are freaked because, being the highly intelligent creatures they are, they KNOW WHY THEY ARE THERE! some get trampled and die. horrible. FUCKING A HORRIBLE. so, naturally i'm in full on tears at this point but i can't fucking change the channel because i'm SURE that this story is going to be how rescue lady outbids everyone for the horse in the story, never has a day off, and for at least this one horse there's a happy ending. i'm sure of this, ok. SURE of it.


as it turns out, rescue lady is outbid and never has a day off goes to the slaughter house, where (before i could change the channel) they quickly cut to a video of her being shot in the head with one of those guns. HBO, YOU GUYS ARE A-HOLES. i cried all night. i'm not even joking. i cried my self to sleep.

i did it to myself. i should know better. i quickly learned that i have to change the channel when the sarah mclaughlin commercial about abused dogs & cats comes on. i don't know what made me think this story was going to be at ALL g-rated. maybe because it was real sports? i don't know.

this was a few weeks ago and i've finally been able to "get over it" so i just had to talk about it because it really impacted my life. that might sound retarded, but i'm serious.

i do have to have a chuckle because as i read over this entry before posting, i notice one somewhat comical fact: i was way more traumatized over the abuse of the horse than i was the abuse of the 4 year old. and that is why i have a cat as a "son". :)

current mood: discontent

(2 ships | sail to the moon)

Friday, May 1st, 2009
10:31 am - yes it's true....
Wes, thank you for reminding me of just how awesome huey lewis and the news are. and huey is major sexy. 4 real. heart and soul...what a fuckin sweet video. i wish i was that girl wearing the pink sack thing. or maybe the bitch with the tight curly mullet. or the waiter with dracula fangs.

life updates:

rob got me a telecaster!!! (and a sweet fender amp) i'm happy to be stuck with you. neh!
i want to go see pearl jam & BEASTIE BOYS at acl fest
and dave matthews band too....fuckin return to 1995 and shit. there are other acts i'd like to catch but pj and the b-boys top my list. i've never seen the beastie boys and given my devotion for many a years, it really should be something on my bucket list. even if they have walkers and adult diapers. it's hip to be square.

so, it's friday! yay! i want a new drug.

work sucks. if this is it, please let me know.


current mood: bouncy

(4 ships | sail to the moon)

Monday, February 23rd, 2009
3:20 pm - <33333
i'm the luckiest lil scraggle in the whole world....

i just got flowers at work from my baby. for no reason. even after i made him go to souper salad....

i love you, roberto nelson martinez. <333333

(3 ships | sail to the moon)

Friday, February 6th, 2009
4:11 pm - fat
seriously, do you people even know how FUCKED up mortgage companies are? their customer service (or lack thereof) is H-O-R-R-I-D. some are better than others, but they are all sub par.

i bring this up because i just spent an hour on the telephone for one my clients with stupid cocksuck CitiMortgage...repeating myself over, and over, and over, and over, and over again until FINALLY someone with half a brain cell was able to sorta kinda help me. it's amazing how bad these companies treat their "customers". i mean, i just talked to at least 7 different customer service agents- each told me something different in response to the same inquiry. i was also hung up on 3 times. 3 fuckin times!!! i hang up on people every now and again...i would say it would take 3-6 months of work before i hang up on 3 people or one person 3 times. jesus h. christ. TERRIBLE!!!

current mood: aggravated

(2 ships | sail to the moon)

Tuesday, January 6th, 2009
4:25 pm - the colony. city by the lake. home of the cougars and a bunch of fucking akards.
i'm obsessed with the show "the first 48" on A&E. i'm sure most of you are aware of the premise. i was totally shocked to find that the season premier last week was the seth winder story/saga. man, i don't care how "big" the colony gets, but it is forever weird to see the colony on tv....and not like, the dallas local news or something, but fucking A&E. not to mention, the whole REASON the colony was on tv was because they were searching for a suspected murderer there....a suspected murderer i went to highschool with a KNEW. while i was never first hand friends with seth, he was first hand friends with many people i knew- ie, my best friend ever.

i don't know. it's a really fucked up and sad story....seth was just a little harmless heshian. i never heard anything bad about him. my sister had a crush on him in highschool. he lived next door to my friend christina and he was always really nice to her and she was one of the most annoying people i ever knew in my life. melissa hung out with him. my other sister was friends with his sister. granted, it seemed that in his later years things were a'going downhill. he was homeless. lived in a tent in the woods in tc. by the way, the tent/camp site was featured on the first 48 and he had giant vulture skulls handing in trees around his camp....not to mention it was the woods conveniently located behind my parent's house. they interviewed his dad..."the boy needs help and nobody wanted to listen to me". sad.
anyway, he's accused of brutally murdering and chopping up this guy that lived in this apartment complex in carrollton. (according to A&E, police still have not found the body...)

god, the colony is so fucking scary sometimes. there's something about that town. seriously. something is fucked up there. i don't know what it is. melissa knows what i'm talking about.

i've always thought that town was weird....haunted or something? (i don't know anyone from that town that doesn't have at LEAST one ghost story to tell from a personal experience they had) i just don't know. it was built on the chisholm trail. there's a historical marker by the old fire station- looks like it was placed there as an afterthought, too. next to some weird ass gazeebo that i have never in the history of my life seen a person sit in, stand in, whatever. maybe it's weird because fox and jacobs decided to build a sub division of homes in the middle of a field in the middle of mother fucking NO WHERE in the late 70's....then suddenly, the dallas metroplex (with all it's mighty powers of urban sprawl) swallowed up all the land between the city and no man's land and forced the "town" to urbanize? i mean, who builds a subdivision of homes in a field that is not a town/incorporated, etc? and even better, WHO MOVES THERE????

oh. my parents do. that's right.

when we moved there in 1982 (i was all of 2 yrs old; my sisters were infants) all there was in the town was a winn dixie, a meat market, a stop n go gas station, and a big purple whore house. oh, and the "adult video" store across 121. that was it. seriously. "hey, let's raise a family here!!!" it was kinda pretty when it was all field-y and country.

ugh. i guess it was the stupid lake. the shittest, DEADLIEST, lake in texas. lake lewisville, how thine brown waters smell of rotting fish and motor oil.

current mood: contemplative

(4 ships | sail to the moon)

Friday, November 21st, 2008
4:02 pm - omfg
in reference to the "mannheim steamroller" comment i just left kris on my last entry....





(2 ships | sail to the moon)

3:34 pm - xmas
um, so did we all decide to skip thanksgiving and go straight to christmas this year? am i missing something???

raise you hand if you hate "the holidays" more than me?

(i bet none of you raised your hand, cause i hate them the most!)

jingle bells,

current mood: lazy

(5 ships | sail to the moon)

Wednesday, October 29th, 2008
4:04 pm - herro
yes, herro.


i'll give you a quicky and that's it. don't expect me to suck you off or anything....

robert and i have a new apartment. been there about a month now. it's adorable, very homey. we're one big happy family: me, robert, and the pea.

speaking of pea, he's huge and still a mama's boy. he pretty much hates everyone, except for robert and i. lil peckerpod. he likes to play with daddy and snuggle with mommy. we're on the second floor, so now he has a balcony to play on. he likes going outside and sampling the fresh air. speaking of our balcony, it has a lot of shit on it. meh.

i love robert so much. i've finally met my match, people. i'm all domesticated and tamed. we don't go out, cept to go over to rdoodle's and hang with he and michelle. occasionally we bbq outfront. watch lots of the first 48. that's about it. it's awesome. i am finally free and accepting of the idea of getting old (for the most part- i still have my momemnts when the thought of 30 makes me shutter). god, i've changed so much!!!

work is same ole, same ole. robert is managing a ghetto apartment complex off rundberg...he has AWESOME stories...ALREADY!

and that's all for now.


current mood: cheerful

(4 ships | sail to the moon)

Thursday, March 6th, 2008
5:16 pm - and i go insane like i always do
so last night kelley txted me around 12:45 in the am saying something to the effect of she's at the homebar and it's like the twilight zone. being that i was half asleep when i read the message, i was like "oh ok, kelley's at the homebar"....as if it were an everyday thing. so i fall back asleep and proceed to have this crazy dream about being at the homebar w kelley and dancing and singing the sweet like chocolate song to adrian and all this weird flash back to 2003 shit. basically, it was a really fun dream.

for those not in the know, the homebar is a "bar" in dallas where i spent the better part of my early twenties. for you austin people, it was kinda like the club M of dallas. anyway....
totally think this is all just a dream.

so i wake up this morning to a fucking phone call from my mom. i had to pay their $200 water bill...ugh, blah blah. but anyway, when she called i was alerted to the txt from kelley and found that it was indeed quite real. i lol'ed really hard. so yeah, i had one of those "misty water color memories" moments....

in other news, robert and i were playing airplane and he dropped me (i got a little carried away with my flying abilities) on my head/shoulder...i now have a bruise.

current mood: cold

(17 ships | sail to the moon)

Friday, February 1st, 2008
12:38 pm - seniors 1998, bitches.

(8 ships | sail to the moon)

Wednesday, January 30th, 2008
4:39 pm - a quiz...
for you to poop on

COPY FROM HERE THEN SEND DIRECTLY TO ME IN A COMMENT... if you repost in your lj , i'll make sure to fill it out

1) Are you currently in a serious relationship?

2) What was your dream growing up?

3) What talent do you wish you had?

4) If I bought you a drink what would it be?

5) Favorite fruit?

6) What was the last book you read?

7) What zodiac sign are you?

8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.

9) Worst Habit?

10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?

11) What is your favorite sport?

12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?

13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?

14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.

16) Do you have any pets?

17) What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?

18) What was your first impression of me? (honest!)

19) What do you think of clowns?

20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?

21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?

22) What color eyes do you have?

23) Ever been arrested?

24) Top Shelf or beer in a can?

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?

27) What's your favorite place to hang at?

28) Do you believe in ghosts?

29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?

30) Do you swear a lot?

31) Biggest pet peeve?

32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?

33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?

35) Do you believe in God?

36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

(1 ship | sail to the moon)

Tuesday, January 29th, 2008
12:55 pm - curly fries, chocolate milk, doodads
herro live journal,

um, i had a birthday on the 23rd. i'm now really fucking old. my bffe came to town this past weekend for saturday night fun at don's depot-rob, michelle, and robby all joined. it was really fucking fun! don's depot is pretty awesome and they have the most baboony bathrooms i've ever seen!!

i've been having really badass sex with my boyfriend lately. like, the kind of sex that leaves you kinda dizzy afterward. my legs and butt are getting a good work out! we have great sexual chemistry....my only complaint is that generally he wants to do it more than i do. i mean, he pretty much wants to do it ALL the time. i'm more of a sexual camel....get a little and then i'm good for awhile. "awhile" can range anywhere from a week to a month (or more!). seriously. course, i've been trying not to deprive him, but i feel like i ultimately do at the end of the day. :/

peapod is getting so big. i need to take some pictures of him and post for your viewing pleasure. he is the most beautiful boy in brazil. xoxoxoxoxooxox

lame. ok. i'm going to eat at souper salad. well, wait a sec...i COULD eat at alborz! it has been a hot min since i've been there. i was craving a baked potato, but persian.....mmmmmmmmmmmm. fuck. what do i want?!?!?! luby's? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

(4 ships | sail to the moon)

Tuesday, December 11th, 2007
2:00 pm - updatin' livejournal since 2002
1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
went to trail of lights (and spun under the xmas tree...really high)

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i never make resolutions anymore....i always ALWAYYYYS break them.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
gabrielle morgan burt had a baby boy...ari austin <3333

4. Did anyone close to you die?

5. What countries did you visit?
uhhhhhh, Bastrop? yeah, i don't travel much.

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
two words: SELF ESTEEM. and really, i mean: "get my self esteem BACK!"

7. What date(s) from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
i guess the day josh and i finally ended our several year relationship of doom. it had become something very ugly. yet at the same time, it was always something very special and very important to me. i'd be totally lying if i said i didn't miss him nearly every day of the past 6 months, but what's done is done. i have a little something new in my pocket that i'd like to focus on. it won't replace him; nothing will ever "replace" him...but it's not about replacing, it's about finding something new and seeing how it works out. perhaps my new venture will ultimately be a better fit. perhaps not. i'm going to TRY not to worry about it and let the future play itself out.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
remembering how to not put up with anyone's crap because i'm worth much more than i forgot i was. hah.

9. What was your biggest failure?
holding on for way too long because i thought if something failed then it had no meaning.

10. Did you suffer any illness or injury?
i fell out of plastic lawn chair on halloween and scrapped and bruised the total shit out of my arm

11. What was the best thing you bought?
well i didn't buy him, but the best thing i GOT was peapod. HANDS DOWN.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my sister for staying clean and my mom for doing a total 180.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
again, my sister...and my dad. and josh.

14. Where did most of your money go?
beer and beer related things

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
getting pea

16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
Doves. all doves, all the time.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? man, i'm totally not sure.
ii. thinner or fatter? thinner
iii. richer or poorer? RICHERRRRRR, 4 sho

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
being social, trying to meet new people, reading

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
crying over spilled milk and generally being a pain in the ass- basically, a really pathetic attention whore.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
in dalls. as i have since the day i was born.

22. Did you fall in love in 2007?

23. How many one-night stands?
one, i think?

24. What was your favorite TV program?
court tv.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

26. What was the best book you read?

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
shit. nothing?

28. What did you want and get?
a whiiiiiiitttle bittty kitty!

29. What did you want and not get?
josh to love me

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
no country for old men

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i was 27. josh and ali took me to asti for dinner. ali "made" me drink a bunch of henny and i barfed in the back seat of my own car....well not IN the back seat, but out of the back seat...onto the concrete. outside of the restaurant. classy.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
finding the cure for fail.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?
in 2003? shit it was the same as it is now, except i had boy hair. and it was red (most of the time). and to describe my personal fashion concept, i'd say "scriggly bohemian"

34. What kept you sane?
my bffe, gabby, rob & michelle, and the peapod

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
ew, none. well, maybe john stewart.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
politics in general and how balls retarded they are.

37. Who did you miss?
my mom/family. and josh.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
i'd have to say the beaner crew. they are some awesome mexicans! :)

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:
you can't beat a dead horse.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"that snow, leaves me cold- leaves me numb"

current mood: melancholy

(3 ships | sail to the moon)

Wednesday, November 14th, 2007
12:14 am - sucking at the internet since 1980

i have a flickr account now....so like, um....how do i add friends? do you have to pay to do that???? i doubt it....

yeah, i'm dumb.

(4 ships | sail to the moon)

Wednesday, November 7th, 2007
11:16 am - whoreishness
i'm totally horny today.

need. action.


current mood: ding dings & hoo hoos

(7 ships | sail to the moon)

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